update anyone?

Good Lord there's a lot to update. Well first of all Owen is THREE MONTHS OLD now. I know I don't need to say it but time is flying way too fast. My little boy is growing up! He's huge too... I haven't weighed him in a couple of weeks but I'm guessing he's about 17lbs now. Isn't that crazy?! I just want to kiss him and cuddle with him all the time. It never gets old. He is just too precious! So some major milestone updates on the little man:

-He loves 'tummy time,' which is awesome! 

-He slobbers like crazy

-He chews on his fists constantly

-We believe he has a tooth poking through already... one of his k9 teeth. I think that's what you call them?

-He kicks his legs and swings his arms all the time! He's an active little guy!

-He LOVES the swing.

-He also loves to be outside. This is another good calming agent for him. If I walk outside while he is upset he immediately quiets down. It's amazing!

-He loves our new hammock.... again with the swinging and being outside!

-He loves baths!

-He loves Michael Jackson and Lady Gaga. no joke! One day he was fussy and couldn't be easily consoled so I came upstairs and popped on some Human Nature by Michael Jackson and he was instantly quiet! He has good taste. :)

-He's only slept through the night twice. He gets up sometime between 2 and 4, then again between 5 and 6, depending on the first time he woke up. 

-He loves to go for a walk

-He smiles A LOT :)

-He's sleeping right now and I honestly miss him...

I just can't talk enough about him. He's an absolute joy to be around and I'm so thankful to be his mama. 

I recently went back to work, thankfully only part-time. It's bittersweet really. On one hand it's nice to be challenged and needed for my brain but on the other hand I miss my baby and I want to be there when he's upset or happy or being silly or just sleeping. I want to teach him new things everyday and I want to be the first face he sees when he wakes up. I know I'm only gone from him for a short time while I'm at work but I just can't help but wonder... is it really worth it? I worry daily about my decision to go back to work. Not only that but we only have a babysitter through the end of August then I need to find a replacement. Matt's cousin is watching him now and when she goes back to school I have no idea what we'll do. It's so incredibly hard to call a complete stranger and ask them to potentially watch your child while you're at work. I feel awful about it. It honestly makes me sick with worry and the decision just tears at me. Ugh, what to do!!!! 

It's amazing how much a child flips your entire world upside down. In a good way of course. I don't know what I would do without him, I don't know what I would do without my husband either. He is a huge help and I'm so grateful for that. 

So life is great overall, we're doing just fine, and hopefully I'll be a little better about updating this thing... we'll see. :) Until next time, here's some pics of my little man.

I have been seriously lagging in the blogging world lately. Truth is, I feel like I don't have anything to talk about! Nothing really exciting has happened in the past few weeks to cause me to blog. Well I guess nothing's really happened in the past that's been that exciting anyway but I still managed to blog about it. So nothing new to report. 

I guess I can say that my job is super busy. I had to work from 8 until midnight on Tuesday because of a system upgrade. That was the longest day ever. Someone asked me about something that happened that morning and I thought it happened the day before. Then I had to turn around and get to work by 7am the next day. People do it all the time so I'm not complaining. Honestly I feel like so much time is spent at work all I can think about are work experiences. So today we were having a meeting with a group I am in and one person asked how long is that going to take? (basically you're just getting the short version of the conversation) Well the person answering, this is a woman, said basically it shouldn't take very long because we have four people working on it. Then he, our project lead, said well you can have 9 women in a room but that still doesn't mean it only takes 1 month to have a baby! HAHAHAHA! I loved it. Everyone laughed out loud on that one... hopefully you did too or did you just have to be there? 

So at least I really enjoy my job and I am very thankful for that. I'm thankful I even have a job for that matter. I get to travel back to Wisconsin on Sunday for a Training Advisory Council. Oh so exciting! I'm going by myself this time though so that'll be different. I do have some great girls to go out with while I'm there though so I'm sure that will be fun. It's kind of funny I've been to Madison, I think this will be my fourth time?? Yet I haven't really seen much of the city. I think it's smaller than Columbus, although I could be completely wrong. Anyway I'll be gone for 4 days. I'm definitely not looking forward to being away from Matt. He's been traveling SO MUCH lately. I really miss him. 

Personal life is good, I can't complain! Like I said Matt has unfortunately been traveling a lot lately but I manage to occupy myself. I've got my pooches and great friends to keep me company. :) We're planning a trip to California here in less than a month. I'm super excited about it. We're going with a fabulous couple, Kathy and Jonathan. Luckily we were able to find super affordable flights and a free place to stay for most of the time we're out there! How great is that?! We plan to check out San Fran, they've never been, as well as a little bit of Napa, as well as Lodi. We're also going to take a cave tour, which I am SUPER excited about! We're going to be about 2.5 hours from Yosemite as well so we planning to go hiking a day or two. Overall I feel it's going to be a fun, relaxing, yet entertaining trip. I'm sure I'll take LOTS of pictures and I definitely plan on sharing them! 

So that's it for now! until next time....

Everything happens for a reason?

You know the saying "Everything happens for a reason"...do you really believe that is true? Are we just along for the ride and everything else is planned out for us or do we actually have control over everything that we do?

I can't help but wonder what would've happened if I would've actually gone to California for school to achieve my goal in the fashion industry, would Matt and I be together today? Or what if he would've taken the job in Boston, would we be living in Ohio again or make Boston our permanent home? All of these things play out to make us who we are today so what's to say we are in complete control of everything that is going on in our lives.

When I was growing up I had plans and certain things I expected to happen in my life. First I wanted to work in the fashion industry and move to California to attend school. Shortly before moving (I actually had everything planned) I chickened out. I felt like I would lose myself out there and the thought of being alone thousands of miles away from my friends and family, I just couldn't do it. So life continues, I then change courses, work full time and go to school part time to decide what I wanted to do with my life. I was an 'undecided' major for the longest time. Matt and I moved to Texas for his job (only a year) then when we moved back to Ohio I felt a passion to go into nursing. I took all of the pre-requisites to get into nursing school and felt I was on the right track. Little did I know I would never pass the entry test that would get me into nursing school. I searched for other schools to attend only to be put on a 2 year waiting list. I decided I needed to have some sort of degree to my name so I just went with an associates degree. Nothing special. I just desperately wanted to be done with school.

Here I am today. I do work at a children's hospital but I am not a nurse. In computer systems actually... who would've thought?!

I'll never know what would've happened if I went to California but it also frustrates me to think if everything happens for a reason why do we try so hard to make things happen?